Sunday, 20 August 2017

365 Days Project | Part 30

252, 253/365, Season 2: I got these flowers at the premiere of the second "Klappe gegen Rassismus" season which is a film idea competition in Mecklenburg Western Pomerania. If you're living in this state then you'll be able to apply for the next season already: click here

254/365, One More Light: And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair. Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there. If they say: Who cares if one more light goes out in the sky of a million stars? It flickers, flickers. Who cares when someone's time runs out if a moment is all we are? Or quicker, quicker. (x)

256/365, 2YRS: Before you know it it's 3 am and you're 80 years old and you can't remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart.

255/365, Liability: I think I will never take so many self portraits again after this project. Maybe that's  a good thing because I currently do want to take more photos of other people and start having small series about topics which are dear to my heart. I'm currently also trying to figure out what I'm going to do with this blog ...

257, 258/365, Lorenza: Visiting my internet friend in South Germany (which was also my first time in the South) and being super inspired for a short film. Never was so much reminded of a Ghibli studio movie.

259/365: Guts Over Fear

260, 261/365, Aeons End: Photos from a performance of Pats band at the Hanse Sail. If you're into prog metal, then you should definitely check them out: www.aeonsend.com

262/365, Transfiguration: A complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state.

263, 264/365: Backstories

265/365, Nala: Laura and her cat.

This project turned from a conceptual project to a documentary project of my life and I'm quite okay with that. I actually learned a lot from my photography during this project or to be honest: I learned what I don't want my photography to be. I'm still on the path of finding my way and if you paid attention, you'd noticed that I have exactly 100 shots left for this project. I initially wanted to pick up the challenge properly for the last 100 but since I learned that conceptual photography is not exactly what I'm eager to go further into at this point, I decided to try out another 100 Happy Days. Some of you may have seen my first 100 Happy Days photos on my old blog. And if not, then be excited for my updated answer to the Can you be happy for 100 days in a row? question.

Saturday, 15 July 2017

365 Days Project | Part 29

242/365, Disposable / Anna (l.): This was taken on a very rainy day where I asked her to drive around town, so I could capture some shots for my c u next time video. This photo shows Anna who is one of my childhood friends in a park where I grew up next to.

243/365, Disposable / Pat (r.): "Imagine this would be the last photo taken of you!" I said before I pressed the shutter.

244/356, Disposable / Ferry: Spontanous trip to Denmark with my art studio mates because the tickets were on discount. It was so so so nice spending time with them when our time together is ending soon.

245, 246/365, Disposable / Jeanne: I think at this point you should be familiar with this face.

247/365, Disposable / A Midsummer Night's Dream: Let me tell you the crazy story of this photo. Daniel was invited to the film festival as a filmmaker whose short film was gonna be screened in the main program. Problem for him was that the date of the festival would collide with the date of his exam for a pretty prestigous film academy he applied for. The exam consists of making a short film in just four days under a given topic that he would get on the first day and submit this film in person. A normal person would cancel the festival to be able to get the film done properly. But as you'd expect by now, he didn't cancel. So. What he did was calling up Jeanne (who was responsible for filmmakers that would come to the festival) and told her his crazy idea to make his film in Rostock (where the festival took place and a place he's not familiar with at all but also the place furthest away from his submission place, 810km distance to be exact). Jeanne organized that he would have a room in the hostel (where the filmmakers were staying) as a shooting location. Daniel organized a crew in Berlin that would come for a day to shoot the film and he messaged some students of the acting class of the uni here in Rostock. The first day of the festival came, his film was screened in the first part of it where he talked about his plan on stage. Soon after that he got the topic from the uni and he disappeared to write down a story, cast the actors and just do all the things you have to do as the director of a film. Fast forward two days after that, the last day of the festival, the get together at breakfast where everyone could let the festival end under blue sky before everyone would leave. I'm enjoying the sun while talking to the other festival team members and to some filmmakers. Suddenly the festival director comes up to me and asks me if I heard about the story of this filmmaker that is making a film during the festival. Turns out that Daniel had shot his film and the only thing left is the post production but unfortunately he's not able to do it on his own (he's only director and actor but he never cuts his films), so his plan was to drive to his hometown where he knew a person who would cut it and then drive to the uni to submit and defend the film in front of a jury. But when he sits there in the sun he thought: "Wait, I'm here at a film festival, surrounded by filmmakers. How are the odds that at least one of the people here would know how to cut a film?" So he goes up to the festival director to ask if he knew someone who could edit and the only person he knew was, you may get it, me. And this is the story of how I got to know Daniel. The story of how I ended up not catching up sleep as I thought I would do after the festival because I'm always up for making films. This is the story of how I told Daniel about Pat who is a musician that could do the soundtrack to his film and of everything, this is the story of how too many coincidences led to a film that would get Daniel accepted into the academy. Coincidences that couldn't be just coincidences, so when Daniel called us to announce the great news he called this story a midsummer night's dream. This photo was taken after we finished the cut and had a small prescreening with the actors and everyone involved in this story. Jeanne, Daniel and I were talking about the future that was very unknown for Jeanne at that time, so it got emotional pretty fast. When I brought Daniel to the train station afterwards, he got me tearing up as well, so yeah. We planned to see each other again in some time and maybe this film me made could be screened at the festival next year? We will see.

248, 249/365, Artists Clan: The artists clan was created by us to fill the void we had in us after the festival. Four people enjoying exhibitions, art shows and documentaries just because of post festival depression? Yes, you heard it.

250/365, Horizonte: I already told you guys that my photo was shown at the Rostocker Horizonte photo show. The story of that was that it was super windy and I ended up missing my photo because my mum was taking a lot of time to decide what to wear. But it was still a nice evening though.

This part was taken by a disposable camera. I'm missing a few photos though, so I'm not sure if something went wrong during the development or if I just suck at taking pictures with such cameras but I looked at the negatives and I think its the latter. I'm still glad that the most important photos got out. Film photography is still a thing that I need to look into but for now the disposable ones should do the trick.

Friday, 30 June 2017

365 Days Project | Part 28

236/365, 24h To Take: So I spontanously participated in the 24h To Take film competition where the premise was to create a short film with a predetermined title and three objects (this year: radio, receipt bill, paper airplane) in twenty-four hours. In retrospect, I would change up a lot, so I’m pretty dissatisfied with everything, but you know, 24h limits you a lot too. A friend had to convince me to publish it since I'm really not liking it myself (click). But films are made to be seen, no matter how good or bad they are. Remind me for the next time that I shouldn't make films alone.

237/365, June: I thought that after my internship I would have so much time to spend and nothing to worry about for the next few months before moving and going to uni, but I thought wrong and thus here I am still working and organizing projects. I don't know how to feel about it if I'm being honest because those are things that are exhausting and stressful but also things I'm passionate about or things I'm plainly interested in. I can't really comprehend the effect they'll have on me right now, like don't I need some time to rest? This is kinda confusing.

238/365, Gigi: Having this strong urge recently that my photography is about to evolve but I'm feeling like it's restrained by my fear to ask people if they want to be part of my experiments in style (= mostly pictures of myself that I don't like). Thanks again for Gigi here who volunteered to get in front of my camera and made me realize that I'm the only one holding myself down. I'm really fighting with my self-perception currently.

239, 240/365, Blossoming: "I want to do things for people they will never forget. Maybe that’s the best thing I can do in life."

241/365, Who: It's weird because I feel like I am currently in midst of a changing phase. Not the slow, subtle kind of change that I felt during the last months. More like the change that happens over night and makes you want to press the PAUSE key because you don't know what's happening. That's how I'm feeling right now. It's really hard for me to create during this time. The art I make is dissatisfying because I know that it represents the person I was before but not the person I am now.

I'm going to get the film of my disposable camera developed and hope that the photos on there will be somewhat okay to be the next part of this project. I can't believe I could say this so soon but I'm currently earning some money with filmmaking and started working on the animated short film I planned to do for months now but never got the time until now. There are also some side projects I can't talk about just yet (because they aren't set in stone at this point) but I'm still figuring everything out, so yeah, nothing much to tell here.